I think some sort of switch flipped inside me last night and I woke up DONE being pregnant. I started to write this post and had just finished a vivid description of how badly my hips hurt and was moving on to the host of other issues that are currently causing me discomfort. But then I paused for a moment to reread what I’d written and I liked myself a little less after reading it. Suffice it to say, today is not my best day.
Tomorrow is our all day birth class extravaganza. This is good timing because my mind has been pretty focused on the whole birthing process since our hospital tour last weekend. Thinking about labor is still a bit terrifying, but I think it will also help to take my focus off how uncomfortable my pregnancy is these days and will make it easier to shift my thinking to the next step. If I can just keep my eyes on the prize, I can get through this last stretch. My doctor told me at one point that it’s good to be frustrated with pregnancy because she thinks you need a little anger in you to really get through the pushing phase of labor. We shall see.
Non-sequitur, but have you ever seen that show on TLC called “I didn’t know I was pregnant”? I always wondered about those people, but it’s at this stage in my pregnancy that I’m ready to pass judgment on them – they are retarded. How could you NOT KNOW!? The baby is moving around so strongly these days that she literally feels like having an active puppy inside you. And you just didn’t notice? REALLY?
I spent an hour or two in the nursery last night, really getting some things organized for the first time. It felt incredibly productive. The weather has been too hot for motivation lately, but last night was cooler than usual and I was able to vacuum, dust, and unpack all sorts of things. I assembled the Diaper Genie and wipes warmer that I got at my shower (thanks Linda and Christy!), I sorted all the clothes into piles for 0-3 months, 3-6 and so on, dumped all the newborn clothes, sheets and blankets in the wash and made a list of things we still need to buy. I still need to hem the curtains and the crib bedding is hopefully arriving today, but for the first time, things are starting to feel a bit more settled in there. Perhaps we’ll even have a few photos to share after this weekend.