All of this is to say that today, I went shopping. Jeff and I made a plan for today that he would take Edie from 10:30-2:30 and I would take her from 2:30-6:30. At first, I thought about hanging around the house and cleaning, but it suddenly dawned on me that I was desperate to not wear my elastic waist jeans. I wanted REAL jeans. And yes, I have about 5 pairs of super cute (and not cheap) pre-pregnancy jeans, but dude, those jeans are not fitting any day this week and how long post-pregnancy is it appropriate to only wear elastic waist pants? I decided to invest in one or two nice pairs of pants that make me feel human again until I can squeeze myself back into my old pants.
Hanyvays. Today, I went to the mall and I wandered through all the old shops that I used to like to go to and I tried on my first pair of pants with zippers and buttons in about 8 months. Maybe 9. And while I am not terribly in love with my current size, it felt GOOD. My friend Heidi joined me for moral support and we even had time for a grown-up lunch in a restaurant where I ate with two hands and didn't feel panicked about eating as fast as possible in case Edie started crying midway through and I had to go 2 more hours before eating the other half.
And perhaps the best part of my 4 hour hiatus from full-time Motherhood? I actually had time to miss Edie. I walked back in the front door at 2:30 and haven't really taken my eyes off her since.